The Things We All Carry

Charlie Collins - VA

Today's guest is Charlie Collins. Charlie is a singer songwriter out of Northern Virginia who also happens to be a firefighter. He's a firefighter in Loudoun County. He picked up the guitar recently as a way to recover and as a piece of therapy, actually.And from there, between TikTok, YouTube, friends and co-workers, his stuff got out on the internet and he was picked up by a producer in Nashville, Actually the son of Roger Miller and some of you might know who Roger Miller is. He's famous for the song King of the Road.His son found Charlie and decided he was worth recording and I have to agree with him. So the result of that recording was the EP called Undisclosed and you're going to hear some of the songs from that in today's episode and you're going to hear a couple of unreleased songsThis one was a good one. This was a fun one to do. There was a typical story of life and some traumas and some drama and then recovery. But there's also five songs mixed in and it was a little tricky for me because it's the first time I've recorded music along with a podcast.So hopefully the quality treats you right. And, and you enjoy this show as much as I did. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Alex Potter - AK

This week I had the pleasure of speaking with Alex Potter. One of the first things Alex told me when we spoke was that she always knew hers would be a travel centered life. Travel along with living and working abroad changes and enlightens, anyone who chooses to do so. You can't help, but change a little, at least a little once you're exposed and immersed in a culture other than yours. Anthony Bourdain once said:  "Travel changes you  as you move through this life and this world, you change things slightly. You leave marks behind however small. And in return life and travel leaves marks on you."Alex went to school to become a nurse. During that time she chose to study abroad. She spent time in India, Uganda, and Jordan, while working on her degree. All the while she knew she had a passion for journalism and photography. Once she graduated, nursing jobs were tough to find and she  returned to Jordan. That was the start of a career that would find her in Jordan, Yemen and Iraq. Just to name a few of the countries. Her story takes twists and turns involving revolutions invasions, wild land, firefighting, trauma nursing, and in the middle of all of it, finding love. Alex has experienced her share of trauma, death, loss, and grief.Never one to back down from a challenge, Alex has met it all head on and with her head up. Perseverance and a life fulfilled are the themes running through every aspect of her human experience.  This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Stephanie - Five After Midnight

"Well behaved women rarely make history" Marilyn Monroe, Eleanor Roosevelt, Anne Boleyn, even Princess Leia, you take your pick that line has been attributed to all four and more. Credit actually goes to Laurel Thatcher Ulrich, an American professor Stephanie White is trying her best to make some history. Attempting to change a culture  requires you to step on toes and irritate the keepers of the status quo. From marijuana, to PFAS, to mental health, to pregnancy in the fire service, Stephanie is championing progression and change. Her voice can be heard on the 5 After Midnight podcast and  her writings can be found in Fire Engineering.Stephanie and I spoke for a little over an hour last week. We had no planning and zero idea where this would take us. What follows is an off the cuff impromptu conversation between two voices riddled with thoughts, opinions, and ADHD.  This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Alex-NOVA

Soren Kierkegaard wrote"The greatest hazard of all, losing oneself, can occur very quietly in the world, as if it were nothing at all. No other loss can occur so quietly, any other loss, an arm, a leg, $5, a wife, et cetera, is sure to be noticed. "In our day-to-day lives it's very easy to lose ourselves and our sense of self. We are often the last to notice. Alex is a firefighter from a nearby agency and his story is just that losing himself to the job. His story is a familiar one, one wrought  with overtime, an all in culture, a mindset that tells you no one outside the service understands, the morbidity of humor, even a feeling of being better than anyone else, simply because of the work you do. It's that slow transition into defining yourself as a firefighter, not as an individual or a human working as a firefighter.Alex lost a girlfriend, nearly lost an entire set of friends, and more importantly, he lost his sense of self and turned very dark before realizing he had to change. Through therapy he's been able to make amends and changes. He's found the outlets necessary in order to not keep the experiences and emotions bottled in. He's found the way to enjoy and live life and not simply be about the barbell and a fire truck. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

DavidA -PNW

David is a retired firefighter medic from the Pacific Northwest. He spent 28 years on the job between volunteer time and career. His story is one filled with trauma on the job to include numerous pediatric codes and death. Those traumas led him to anger, to drinking, to rehab, and eventually to recovery.Today David is retired and he's retrained as a welder. He makes his recovery the priority in his life knowing without sobriety, nothing else would be possible. David and I spent two plus hours talking about life recovery and life after the fire service.   This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Tattoo Tom - Stillbrave

Tom Mitchell is a hero. I don't throw that title around often or easily, but in this case, it's the truth. Better known as Tattoo Tom, Tom is a self-described and appropriately anointed aggressive and unapologetic activist for children with cancer and their families. From a personal tragedy was born a dogged determination to do basically anything and everything for these kids and their families. From becoming a boxer at the age of 39 to participating in a Moab 240 to dedicating space on his own skin for the memory of children lost to this disease.....Tom has made himself the ultimate advocate. He founded Stillbrave to provide non-medical supportive care to children with cancer and their families. The organization does that and so much more. Parents of children with cancer are overwhelmed with a diagnosis, Tom and Stillbrave are there to help. That help can be monetary, emotional, guidance with terms and procedures, or simply a chance to smile. This show is a first responder centered podcast, and it may seem odd to have tom, as a guest, trust me the connection is there. Last September I recorded with Loren, a firefighter in my area, she's also a childhood cancer survivor and a board member of Stillbrave. A few months ago I found out that a good friend, coworker, and in all but blood a brother of mine was embarking on a cancer journey of his own. His infant son had been diagnosed with an aggressive cancer and the family needed all the help they could get. My first call was to Loren. That's all it took....one call. Loren, Tom, and Stillbrave jumped in and offered money, advice,  and an ear. I'm indebted to them for the help they gave so easily in generously. Listen to Tom's story. Hear the ugly truths about cancer and the treatments. Understand how little is spent on research. Find a way to do your part in this battle.  This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

The Painted Buffalo

Gandhi said that the "best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." Jess Rambo is a creative force behind the Painted Buffalo. She's a Marine Corps veteran who has taken her artistic skill and passion and applied it to the veterans community. Her love of art and love for veterans meets in the middle to create opportunities for vets to tell their stories. It doesn't matter if the story is ever heard by anyone else, it simply matters that they are able to express themselves. Jess hit the road at the beginning of COVID in a school bus, she renovated for her family to live in. Along the way they hit 38 states, 30 national parks and over 300 meetups for veterans all the while meeting over 1200 individual veterans . Her Paint Can Project provides veterans with socks, water bottle shirts, and art supplies meant to encourage them to open up, begin a journey and tell their story. Today Jess and her children call North Georgia home. She has an even larger and more grandiose vision of what her service can become. She is creating a homestead for her family, her animals, and the veterans to commune, create and connect. Jess has lost herself in the service of others. And we all benefit from the self she's finding a new.   This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Chad ”Burnt Out”

 Dostoevsky wrote"You will burn and you will burn out. You'll be healed and come back again."Those words resonate with me. In some manner, small or large, we burn every day. Day-to-day life alone burns us and then we add traumas, work schedules, irregular sleep, poor diet, and numerous other stressors. I'm not sure if burnout is inevitable but in the first responder world, it's hardly rare. The second part of that message is vital though...."you will be healed and come back again". That healing starts once there's a recognition and an acceptance of burnout. If you notice some signs and symptoms of burnout it's paramount to seek out help, talk to someone, dig into the why, build a recovery, and then come back again. Chad Davis is the author of "Burnt Out: A Paramedic's Memoir". This book is his story, his journey, his experience. Chad is a firefighter, a medic, an author, a husband, and a father. He has lived through a number of life altering traumas and has come through the other side. He speaks about life in the station, the significant calls, the traumas, the death of his infant son, the fight to find himself, and life after all of it.In other words, Chad has been burned, he's been burnt out, he's healed, and he's come back again.  This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Destiny Morris @on_being_resilient

Destiny Morris is a licensed marriage and family therapist from California. Her practice centers around first responders, spouses, and relationships. She is certified as a first responder counselor as well as being trained in the practice of EMDR and trauma informed. She works with individuals, couples and holds first responder partner groups.In this conversation, we discussed the idea of hyper-vigilance and how it affects relationships. We delve into the topic of sex...yeah sex, sex and the first responder. Sex, interpersonal relationships, family planning, communication, and how the life of a first responder affects all of it.You can find destiny on Instagram under the name  @on_being_resilient   I look forward to having her on again to get a little more into the weeds on a few of these subjects. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com

Sara Thrash-TX

Welcome to Episode 78 of The Things We All Carry. Macklemore said....."Music is therapy. Music moves people. It connects people in ways that no other medium can. It pulls heartstrings. It acts as medicine."Sarah Thrash is a Texan, a daughter, a sister, a fighter, and a survivor. Music is a passion and a therapy of sorts for her, whether playing piano, listening to music as the sun sets, or sharing suggestions with strangers on Instagram. Music moves her and helps heal her.I noticed her stories on Instagram and started following her suggestions and links to songs. I found that to be a wonderful foray into new music and artists. Little did I know that she also had a story to tell. Sarah has experienced numerous traumas and trials in her life. She's faced a long road to recovery from both emotional and physical injuries. She's determined to push on and not let the traumas define or defeat her.She will be the first to tell you that in her life, the overarching theme is hope. That hope is as much for her as it is for the world around her.  This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thethingsweallcarry.substack.com